Bloody nackered all the time!
Boys are 21 weeks old now, wow time flies...well not really, but you know. :)
they are well, pretty good really, no real problems, *touch wood* . as far as babies go they could be much worse.
can't wait they start talking though :)
sort of feel more like a dad now, but still not really, it'll come I'm sure,,I hope!
Today is the first day of our new lives with Jin and Cloud. They arrived home today after spending 40 days in the hospital. So far so good but the sleeplessness is going to be killer!!!
Cloud
DOB - 1st May 2006
Time - 4:14pm
Weight - 1455gm / 3lb 3.5oz
Length - 39.5cm
Head Circumference - 30cm
Jin
DOB - 1st May 2006
Time - 4;13pm
Weight - 1580gm / 3lb 8oz
Length - 41cm
Head Circumference - 28.5cm
Yes, this is us :( We've been diagnosed with gestational diabetes...borderline case, but nevertheless still have to do all the annoying things that other people do. Such as 4 times daily blood glucose monitoring, in other words, needle jab (down to twice daily now thank god). Changed diet so we're not eating 3 big meals a daily, but rather 6 smaller serves. Cut down on sugars and simple carbs...not much fun, but hopefully after pregnancy it will all revert back to normal and we can forget about it!
woo, we're at 25 weeks, time has not gone fast, but it doesn't seem that long that we were are 12 weeks! Hopefully the next few months will be the same :)
All tests are OK so far and everything is normal...except yesterday we had the short Glucose Tolerance Test (GTT), drank the glucose liquid and then blood glucose level test an hour later. The result was 0.8, 0.1 above normal range, so borderline. B had toast with marmalade in the morning so that probably increased the reading...midwife is saying we should book in for the long GTT now, which involves fasting from midnight then going into Gribbles and getting blood taken several times for 2.5 hours! Not happy Jan as this test sounds stressful, inconvenient, time consuming and possible not necessary! I'm going to ring tomorrow and ask to do the short GTT again and whether the long one is really necessary...
Been to the antenatal twins class at WCH the last 3 weeks and they have been great. Tina Bode is the educator and she lives in Stirling as well! She is great, informative, funny, easy going, light, non-judgemental, helpful, caring and a whole lot better than Carol Bennett at Ashford! Would be good if we became friends!
We're at 22-23 weeks now! Had our 19 week morphology scan and it's all good. They are growing at the right pace, all limbs and digits accounted for :)
We've bought 2 cots that convert into single beds, so they should last quite a few years. We've got 2 carseats that are convertible also. A Maclaren Twin Stroller, which is a highend stroller. Heaps of clothes, nappies and blankets. We still need bassinettes (probably hire them?), maybe rockers, a bath/change table...and that's about it for the basic necessities. I'm sure there are plenty of other things we'll need, but for the first few months, we're nearly set. Picking most of this stuff up from Your Child's Nursery (YCN) tomorrow with the help of Dylan (he owes me a favour from the time I helped push his broken down car).
Emotions:
I don't feel like I'm going to be a dad. It hasn't hit me. I have no real tangible evidence that it's happening. Obviously I know it is happening, but on some level I am not accepting it. I have no bodily changes like she does. All I am doing is spending money! LOL. I'm sure that when they are born, or soon after, it'll all fall into place, but right now I can't imagine it! This is all normal I'm sure.
I feel scared too, mostly about when they are babies and how we're going to cope looking after them. The first 12 months will be tough. After that, when they can look after themselves somewhat (go to toilet, not cry all the time, basically not FULLY dependent), it'll be better. I'm sure we'll cope and it'll be all over before we even know it, but right now it's pretty scary!
Bunnie: she's been getting a fair bit of aches and pains, so we've been seeing Jenni Doubell, a masseuse in Stirling who specialises in Neuralign. A technique that is very gentle and aims at aligning the body by massaging certain points on the muscles. This seems to be working, after treatment B is no longer in severe pain. As a bonus, Jenni is a nice person that B gets along with, she seems to genuinely be interested in her well being :)
Woke up from a nightmare about my family...couldn't get back to sleep so got up and spoke to Bunnie about it.
My dad called and said that the police are ringing him about my car which has been reportedly used in some sort of crime (ram-raid or something) at 3 different locations across Australia at the same time! I said that I know what that is, my reg plates have a bad history associated with them, that it's a misunderstanding and obviously that I didn't do it. But he was in a panic anyway and wanted to meet up, he was with S1.
Before I could leave to meet them, S2 was at home with me and we were watching a home video of when he cracked a fit and started assaulting everyone in the family. The clip showed him pointing a gun and threatening us with it. As I sat on top of him and pointed my finger in his face accusingly, I said "there, is that what you want to do to us? Shoot us???" He then saw how wrong it was and calmed down. That is what I feel his behaviour is like, pointing a load weapon into our faces! That's the sort of tactics he uses! Does no one else see this???
This got me thinking about my mum and hiding the babies from her, etc. B and I then talked about all this shit...I feel alot better now. She has been through this before, she's disowned her mother, it took her a long time to do it, but she's done it. It was very hard for her, i remember.
I'm not at the stage where I can see my mother for what she is, a very crappy human being, who doesn't really care about anyone but herself. I still see her as my mother, some I am supposed to respect, no matter what...but why? Just coz she's my mother? She's a human being, why doesn't she have to treat me like any other human being should, decently and with respect???
I feel bad about hiding our pregnancy from her, the more I think about it the worse I feel. But I know that it's the only way. We don't want our children to be influenced by her and Simon. Their negativity, aggressiveness, selfishness, etc, etc. B's biggest fears with mum is her forceably taking the babies away from her/us, and secondly her trying to breastfeed them when she's alone with them. Both of these scenarios are somewhat likely to happen, maybe not VERY likely but likely enough to warrant us preventing it altogether.
I am afraid of all this too, but I;m more thinking about what would happen when/if they find out! For example, what would I say if mum said that my uncle saw us at the market with the babies, or something like that. Why do I care about this? It's a hypothetical! Why do I care so much about what they think???
Everything is normal :) Of course, we knew it would be, but it's great to know. The other more interesting news is we now know they are 2 boys! We were hoping for one of each (as everyone does I guess) but hey, what you gonna do? We're a bit disappointed, but I'm sure we'll get over it :) Just happy they not Downs :D
Caught up with Frog and Josh tonight. Josh has put on a lot of weight, didn't even recognise him at first! He is Seren's husband's cousin, into hip hop and a bit eccentric in his views. I have been trying to find the name of this female aussie vocalist for ages Josh, being a "music encyclopedia" (as Liam calls him), picked it as Missy Higgins straight up! He had his ipod and a Missy Higgins song right there so I could confirm! Legend, now I can get some of her music.
Liam leaves tomorrow, I haven't spent much time with him, partly coz I've been busy, but mostly coz I've outgrown him. He's still going out and trying to pick up and living the old lifestyle. I'm a married man with kids on the way, just a different stage of life! I didn't tell him any of this of course...perhaps one day I will?
I gave my number to Frog, he said he'd ring, hope he does, he's not a bad bloke.
likes:
mangoes, smell of clean sheets, smell of bunnie's perfume, timing something well, raining when I'm inside, salt and pepper squid, quick downloads, genuine smiles, belly laughs, uncontrollable laffs, getting a park right outside, farting, a good crap, unique ppl.
dislikes:
bills, psoriasis, burnt food, mozzies, ants inside, sick pets, other ppl's farts, too much chilli, going back to work after holidays, deadlines, tailgaters, aussie singers with american accents, being grumpy and not snapping out of it, dental pain, boring ppl, being bored.
It's all over, the amnio is finally over, but not without some dramas. Bunnie was very upset on the table, of course, with Bella in hospital (see below) it was just too much. But we got through it, no incidents, no spontaneous abortion or anything nasty like that. Now we wait 10-21 days for the results. Dr Shand reckons that twin A is most likely a boy and twin B probably a boy too, we'll know once the results come back.
Bella was not well on Thursday, we hoped she'd get better by Friday but she didn't, took her to vet Friday arvo and we have only just got her back now (Tuesday arvo!). She is still not 100%, far from it, she hasn't eaten all this time so she really needs to eat something.
The problem was a gastrointestinal blockage, a combination of fur and some type of parasites. They couldn't id the parasites/worms and have sent them off to be examined. This was causing her stomach to not empty and nothing was passing through at all. Hence she was throwing up and not eating. They ended up opening her up Sunday arvo, laparotomy as they didn't know what the hell was going on at that stage. They thought stomach tumor, then bladder tumor, then acute cystitus, then pancreas something or rather...the vet had no idea really.
Now she is home but she is not looking too well. Still not eating/drinking. Both her front arms are red, one is really raw, so she is walking slowing and can't seem to get comfy. She really needs to eat otherwise we might have to take her back to the vet...that's the last thing we want to do...
blah, I shoulda known, lol. I've stopped the Tony Robbins Get theEdge programme...just been too slack! "too hot" "too tired" "too late" "too early", etc, etc. I DO want to get back into it, just have to get my arse into gear.
We're at 15 weeks now, amnio next Tues, scary, will have to wait a couple of weeks as well to get results :(
Bought a bunch of baby clothes today from ToysRUs, $160 worth for $50 :D 70% off all their Bruins range of clothes :) We bought all 0000 size seeing as twins are usually smaller than singletons, so hopefully they will fit into them for a while. I want to go back and get some 000's, so cheap!!!
Bought 2 Safe N Sound Premier Retractable car seats as well (not today, a few days ago). $227 instead of $349. They are convertible so can use for newborns to toddlers, beats getting capsules then throwing them out and getting upright ones! Sure the capsules are safer, but we're don't plan on crashing! TOUCH WOOD.
Things have been rough with DW, I constant piss her off :( which causes stress -> more cigarettes. I don't want the babies to be withdrawing from nicotine as soon as they are born, that ain't right. Nicotine withdrawing babies cry more, are more agitated, etc, just like an adult withdrawing from smokes. I suppose I should be thankful they won't be crack babies, hah. I used to be a smoker so I know what it's like, I would like to think that if it was me I'd give up cold turkey, but I don't know if I could. She has cut down heaps so I should be happy...it's like 1-2 a day instead of the previous 10 or so...some days none at all. What I should be concentrating on is causing less stress around the place, instead of thinking negatively about the whole thing...stupid idiot!
Our 2 miscarriages did not make it this far, I think they were like 6-8 weeks or something like that...so that is a good sign that they will be OK. They're at 15 weeks now, which is past the generally accepted 12 week milestone at which people start announcing the prenancy. BUT, we are having the amnio next week so we aren't gonna feel secure until after that's all over. Time is going slow though :( I'm sure (inside gut feel) that everything will be OK, it's just so many things to stress about with a baby...or 2!
One good thing is I'm writing in here more! hehehe
